leeyu / 11:49 AM

an empty post to show the state of my mind now.
fatigue.
I rejected someone today and i feel rather mean for doing so. But i think somethings just can't be forced. He asked me and I was taken by surprised by it. I had no idea on how to react. He msged me many times, but i was at a loss and ended up not replying to the msges. I told minru and sherilyn about it and asked them for their advices. good swimmer, nice, wellbuilt, good looking. minru and sherry asked me to agree to it as he is like nearly 'perfect', according to them. They told me that if they were me, they'll probably agree to it. But i just didn't like him in that way, i only like him as a friend. They also told me that feelings could be developed and an opportunity does not often strike twice. I was really at a loss, weighing the pros and cons. I just can't get into a relationship without liking a guy, it's not me. I don't really believe in feelings being able to be developed after getting into one. It'll be too late by then. I just replied him not too long ago, i had been thinking about it since the one period break. I might appear silly to some for rejecting him but i'm glad made this decision. I feel happier for doing so even though it might mean that this opportunity will never be offered to me again. God has his plan for me.

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

leeyu / 11:49 AM

an empty post to show the state of my mind now.
fatigue.
I rejected someone today and i feel rather mean for doing so. But i think somethings just can't be forced. He asked me and I was taken by surprised by it. I had no idea on how to react. He msged me many times, but i was at a loss and ended up not replying to the msges. I told minru and sherilyn about it and asked them for their advices. good swimmer, nice, wellbuilt, good looking. minru and sherry asked me to agree to it as he is like nearly 'perfect', according to them. They told me that if they were me, they'll probably agree to it. But i just didn't like him in that way, i only like him as a friend. They also told me that feelings could be developed and an opportunity does not often strike twice. I was really at a loss, weighing the pros and cons. I just can't get into a relationship without liking a guy, it's not me. I don't really believe in feelings being able to be developed after getting into one. It'll be too late by then. I just replied him not too long ago, i had been thinking about it since the one period break. I might appear silly to some for rejecting him but i'm glad made this decision. I feel happier for doing so even though it might mean that this opportunity will never be offered to me again. God has his plan for me.